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Friday, July 25, 2008

sunny flowers for a rainy day

It has been cool, gray, dreary, rainy, and funerary today. It suits the mood; I could use a little cheering up today.

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So, happy colours! I really like orange in nature, although it's not a colour I can really wear, other than when I'm sleeping, or perhaps on my feet or hands. (Note to self: acquire orange sock yarn!) Orange and yellow leaves in autumn are stereotypical, but still beautiful. Even the jarring complementary combination of orange and blue often appeals to me, if it is in the form of a sunset, or flowers and sky.

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I took these a while ago, but they encompass what I mean when I say "happy colours" at the moment. Our day lilies are now coming to an end; we didn't have quite so many this year as we have had in the past due to some culling and garden reorganization.

Monday, July 21, 2008

FO: sweater vest

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It's done! Finally, I finished The Gilmore vest, and I'm very pleased. I will actually wear this, once the weather cools down a little. It's very fuzzy and soft because the yarn I used (22 yr old basement stash) has some alpaca in it. Yeah, yeah, not a summer knit, but whatever. The armhole ribbing is slightly wonky on one side - possibly a result of accidently picking up too many stitches, or something similar, but with blocking that was mostly resolved.

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The pattern was not the clearest; since I'm the eternal novice knitter I had a bit of trouble figuring out parts of it. It wasn't too bad, though I did find myself with a wildly different row count than the pattern told me I should have. I fudged through it and managed just fine, for once. I added some waist shaping, but I think if I made this again I'd add more. It fits fine, but the waist barely nips in at all. Also, I would make the shoulders slightly narrower. I have broad shoulders, so I'm slightly amused that this vest could use narrower ones. More babbling on ravelry

Please excuse the small, crappy pictures. For some reason, I couldn't get any pictures closer up without being completely washed out. When I stood miles away from the camera, it was fine. My self-timer and I need to work out some issues, clearly.

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Knitting pictures coming soon - I finished the vest, and I blocked it last night, but it's really humid here at the moment, so it hasn't yet dried. In the meantime, I stumbled across something interesting.

I have said before that I take the same pictures every year.

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I took this picture today. Purple cone flower (Echinacea, for the naturalistically trendy among us).

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I took this one some time in the fall. I like how the flower holds its shape and even its petals after it dries up.

Finding that accidentally inspired me to look for more:
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Yellow daisies, photo from July 10

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and from Fall 2007.

I might start doing this on purpose now, though the idea is nothing new.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

10 happy things of today

1. It is sunny and warm.
2. There is a soft breeze.
3. I talked to the boy today.
4. He makes me laugh.
5. I am nearly finished the vest.
6. I have been making progress on my summer course work.
7. Decisions that I made are finally sticking.
8. I can afford to sleep in until 12:30, even if doing so makes me feely slovenly.
9. Pulp Fiction is showing on television tonight.
10. I am well-fed and have access to clean drinking water.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

single-minded

Monogamous knitting does not make for stimulating blogging, especially if one knits as slowly as I do. I realized today that only one of the blog posts visible on the page contains any knitting content. Granted, I never claimed this was a knit blog, but that's where I was aiming in some ways.

And I haven't been entirely monogamous either; I've been plodding away at the vest for ages, but I also made some socks and some lemons in that time. Still, I have mostly focused on the vest, whose constant stockinette stitch began to grate on my nerves.

Never fear, gentle readers! (assuming I have any, which I realize is a big assumption to make, but I'll go on for the sake of pretentious blogging), my biggest project since the sweater will go live shortly. The end is in sight! Yesterday I joined the shoulders and seamed the sides, after blocking it a little - something I rarely do, though I realize that I often should. I hope to have the vest completely finished before the weekend, and I've been refraining from taking pictures of it until it's done; while I'm quite pleased with it so far, without neck and arm ribbing it looks pretty rough.

I still have loads of charcoal basement yarn left, so it's not done with me yet...

Monday, July 14, 2008

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I don't want to forget how beautiful everything was last night. At the cottage, the sunset was incredible. I took a billion ill-executed photos; I knew none of them would do the scene justice, but I had to try. Pink and orange mixing in a way that is only acceptable in the sky - it lit up the whole horizon, sending a pink fog over the lake, and reflecting back on us from our windows. The green surrounding the house turned dark, but still recognizably green, while the trees and hills turned to silhouettes. I am a sucker for silhouettes. After a few minutes of brilliant show, the sun dropped out of sight.

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Driving home next to the lake I saw intervals of yellow when we passed breaks in the trees. Yellow into white against steel gray clouds and black trees, reflecting off the lake, highlighting the islands and the old logs sticking out of the water.

Past the lake, the sky was still somehow luminous behind the blue-gray clouds; fields with bales of hay interrupted the darkness, still barely green.

And then the moon peeked out in classic fashion, obscured occasionally by thick cloud, and lighting up that surrounding it with white light. Not a full moon, but a romantic moon nonetheless.

Last night was so beautiful. Nights like that overwhelm me. They make me serenely happy. I feel in love with the world, and completely awed by nature, all hippy and sentimental about life and humanity and trees and rocks and rocks and trees and sky. I find myself (cornily) wishing I could share this view and this feeling with everyone alive or dead.

More photos here

Friday, July 11, 2008

lucky

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A beetle on the mallow.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

getting political and self-righteous

World news makes me angry. Politics infuriates me. Everything I hear and see about what's going on in the world depresses me, but I can't look away.

I can't look away because I know I shouldn't. It's my responsibility to be informed, or so I keep telling myself. I feel guilty if I spend a week away from the newspapers or the radio because I've witnessed the mind-bogglingly uninformed being ridiculous in public. Wow, could I be more elitist? Anyway.

As a citizen of a democracy, I need to know what the issues are; I need to know how I feel about them and what I should do. I frequently fail at that second part.
I feel like I need to know what is happening, but what is happening depresses me, and I don't know what to do about it other than be self-righteously whiny and indignant about everyone else's bullshit. Which isn't helpful. And vote occasionally, which isn't generally helpful either.

My current annoyance comes from the recent G8 decision on climate change, which some Canadian politicians are heralding as a significant step in the right direction - hold on, when did they start believing in climate change in the first place? I must have missed that part. Anyway, it's a decision that means nothing and binds no one. Cutting emissions by half by 2050 - well, okay. Now everyone is asking "Half of what?" and so am I. Ugh. It makes me crazy how politics is always about the next election and short-term costs and the economy. This has all been said before by more eloquent people, but it's completely unreasonable to leave all the tough work to the next administration.

So. To calm myself down I make plans for myself. I try to list all the things I can do myself without having to interact with anyone else, because we all know I'm not about to get involved in the political process. Climate change? We haven't turned our air conditioning on yet this summer and yesterday the humidity made it feel like 39 C. We keep our house relatively cool in the winter, and we're looking into getting a solar hot water heater. We just had a home energy audit that encouraged improvement in many areas. We hang our washing outside when it is sunny. We have fluorescent lights. I don't have a driving license; I walk or take the bus as my main forms of transportation, and if I get over my fear of traffic I'll start biking more. Self-righteous enough? Ouch. Clearly. The main black mark on my record is probably my air travel, and the travel that I generate by being in a long-distance relationship. More reason for me to secure legal means of living in the UK as soon as possible, I guess, in addition to the obvious emotional ones.

The little things one person or one family can do are not very significant, but I guess they aren't meaningless. While I occasionally take comfort in feeling superior to those who live less energy-efficient life styles out of ignorance or choice, my own pride does nothing to ease the global crisis. I feel pretty angry at people who don't share my opinion sometimes, especially when the world is at stake. That's a horrible thing to say, given I know many people object strongly to my opinions on lots of issues, and I recognize their right have hold most of those opposite opinions. But it's true - I'm angry.

Mostly I'm angry at those who have power for being too wrapped up in themselves to do anything that could make them unpopular with oil-hungry voters. But, for better or for worse, this is what democracy is. Sometimes that is comforting; other times it is terrifying.

In prettier news, here is dusk at the cottage.
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Tuesday, July 08, 2008

cottaging

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I spent the weekend toasting in the sun at a rental cottage in Quebec. The weather was gorgeous, and despite me saying "toasting" I didn't actually get sunburned. For me this is unexpected, since I burn upon contact with the outdoors. I probaby filled that lake up with awful sunscreen chemicals, though.

I did get a tiny leech on me, though. Ew. Leeches have always grossed me out, but I've managed to avoid ever having one latch onto me before now. It was not as traumatic as I would have expected, so yay.

I picked raspberries, knit in the sun, swam in ridiculously shallow water, rowed, saw a loon, got mosquito bites... I'm going back next weekend!

Friday, July 04, 2008

secret knitting revealed

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I nearly forgot to post a picture of these. They now live in England with someone whose lemon obsession prompted me to buy a crapload of cheap yellow acrylic and transform a tiny amount of it into lemons. I'm so pleased with them. The recipient, upon finding miscellaneous lemons appearing mysteriously in his house, proceeded to accuse me of having an unhealthy obsession with lemons. Clearly I made them to tickle HIS obsession, not my own. *shifty eyes*

That's right.

(I used this pattern with a few modifications noted on Ravelry)

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

I have returned

Two weeks in England were wonderful. Ahhh. Now that I'm home I have to get on with life and make sure everything works out fabulously, but I enjoyed relaxing and having fun adventures.

Went to London...
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Took lots of flower pictures...
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Enjoyed the Devon views...
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And most importantly spent lots of time with my favourite person. Huzzah! My batteries are now recharged and I'm ready to get lots done between now and when I see him next, whenever that is.

The weather was mostly good - cooler than I'm used to for June, but very pleasant. There are a few more pictures on the Flickr if you're interested. I didn't bring my knitting along *gasp* so I haven't worked on my vest in two weeks, and I think I should get back into it quickly before I completely lose interest.

But Liesl is now for sale, so I'm very tempted to buy and start that right away. I need yarn, though, and I spent all my money in England. Trials and Tribulations.

Monday, June 16, 2008

jetsetting

I posted a tacky and dull look into my packing dilemmas earlier, but I have since though better of it.

But I am off to England in a few hours and so excited about it. I'm restless and giddy.

Here is a peonie because peonies are hilarious.

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I'll be back in two weeks. Hopefully I'll be too busy to blog inanely while I'm there.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Knitting in public and Octopi

Today I knit it public. It was my first knitting meet-up of any kind. I'm a bit antisocial. I plan on attending local knit nights in the future. Maybe. Sort of. Eventually. Knowing me I'll never get around to it. This time a friend and I showed up together. Anyway, it was fun and cool to meet other knitters. The weather wasn't stellar and kept changing its mind. We ended up knitting in Bridgehead, but apparently some others did stick it out in a park. Whatever, spreading the public knitting love is all good. We probably got some quizzical looks, though I wasn't really paying attention so I can't say for sure. A woman told us we were cute, though, and asked if we had a particular cause we were knitting for. I worked on my long-suffering vest more today than I have in weeks. Good thing I'm not in a hurry, since I can't possibly use it until fall.

Instead, I have been working on this:
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Okay, so I'm largely self-taught at embroidery, and I made quite a few misguided decisions in this creature, but I like it anyway. It doesn't look as furry as I was afraid it would, so that's cool. Yay for hairless octopi. The picture doesn't get the colours right even with significant photoshop tweaking: most of the octopus is bright, intense blue, while three of the tentacles are more periwinkle (meant to be peeking out from behind). Fun, learning experience, now I have some awesome long shorts just in time for my trip to England. Yay.

I also made a pear-rhubarb crisp and went to a chamber music concert. Busy busy busy. Tomorrow: packing, finishing an essay, and trying not to jitter myself to death from giddiness. England! Soon! So excited.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

playing with cliches

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I have never seen a poppy look so sad.

I discovered that my camera has a colour accent feature, so I started playing with it. I think this effect is generally overused, but it is kind of fun! I took garden pictures, of course, but I think it was quite effective on the poppies.

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These poppies are startling enough in real colour because they are vibrant red-orange. (Plus, they are next to the deep-purple irises. Woo for contrast). I think red and gray are a startling combination, though. When I looked at my photos I immediately thought of remembrance day. Poppies, gray, blood, mud, death, Belgium. Aaaaah.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Summer Knitty

I don't really get summer knitting. This largely has to do with the climate my region experiences. Cold winters, hot summers. It was ~35 degrees Celsius the other day, with oppressive, breezeless humidity. Definitely not knitting weather. (Says the girl who is currently knitting a wool-alpaca sweater vest. Snort.) While this kind of weather is not constant, it is not unheard of. Knitting halter tops or sleeveless sweaters is generally not practical, however light the yarn. That doesn't stop me from admiring summer knitting designs I'll probably never make. But! This summer's Knitty has several things I like a lot and might even just make some day. Pretty exciting.

Then again, there are always socks. I'll totally make socks in the summer, once I get some real sock yarn, and preferably not straight up wool. Speaking of socks, I like Spring Forward. And Ziggy. Knitty is full of zigzags this issue. How whimsical! Yay.

I actually really like Shetland Shorty, though I'm not sure if I could wear it myself. I'm in shrug-finding mode without knowing if I can pull of shrugs of any kind, especially those with ties in front and boob-holding capacity. But I do really like this - I would like to add long or 3/4 sleeves. I'm sure those kinds of mods are possible. Maybe I'll try it! This wouldn't really hide me from the sun, being all shot through with holes, but it's pretty anyway.

I also like Seascape. I am planning to get into lace a little more in the future, but I don't know if I'd ever use a shawl or wrap. Still, I love the pattern. I'm not totally into triangular shawls with lots of points yet, though I'm warming to them; this lace pattern is automatically more appealing to me.

Couvercle is very cute, but again something I don't know if I could pull off. It might be a bit too trendy for me. I wear hats when it is cold to keep my head warm, and when it is sunny to keep the sun off my pasty pasty skin. Plus, although it is cotton it looks like it might be too warm for summer. Maybe it would work for fall. I keep talking myself out of trying a newsie cap or any sort of vaguely stylish but less practical hat... but perhaps I should ignore my misgivings and try something out of my comfort zone. (Do I even have a comfort zone? Hmmm.)

Lastly, as relates to my odd tote-attraction, there is BYOB. It appeals to me. We have dozens of canvas bags, but this would not be an unwelcome addition to our shopping bag collection. I hazard. Stylish. Possibly TOO stylish. It would need longer handles to be useful to me, but I expect that is doable. I worry about stretching in the handles because it seems to be the thing to worry about with knitted bags, but I'm sure there are plenty of solutions for that, too.

On the home-knitting front, I haven't touched the vest in a week. It will get done, but I'm not in a hurry. Bo-ring.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Lacking direction, aka story of my life

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I was never firm about prospective careers as a child. I don't think I ever announced I was going to be a ballerina or a fireman. (The latter is a more likely candidate, given I never took ballet lessons and I was a wannabe 'tomboy' for a while). I briefly thought I'd like to be involved in web design. The closest I ever got to having a definite ambition was a longlived desire to be a writer that began in elementary school and continued in some fashion over the years until stark reality hit a few years back.

To be fair, I've been good at denying stark reality so far, but in this last year of university it has been more persistent. What am I going to do with my life? Who knows. When am I going to get proactive and find a real job? July, hopefully. At least a fake-real job if I can't get a real one. Right.

I have too many cursory interests and I know too little about each. I'm not perfect at anything, and I am reluctant to put myself out there unless perfect, as irrational and impossible as that may be.

When I say I lack direction, what I really mean is I have the wrong kind of direction. Perhaps it's not exactly "wrong," but it's not self-starting ambition. My direction at the moment is England. My most important goal for the near future is having some way of legally living in England for the longterm. This is an important part of my life at the moment, so all my plans for the future attempt to factor this in. Unfortunately, I seem very willing to ignore the other things, probably to their detriment.

My most legitimate way to England would be to do more university. I am seriously considering this, on one hand. It would be crazy of me to stop now and hope to fall into a stimulating career. Maybe it wouldn't be crazy, but I can't think of anything I'd be willing to do that people would willingly hire me for with my current qualifications and lack of experience in anything meaningful. Not saying I'm bitter, just saying I need to do something more specific. What is holding me back is the cost. If I had an extra $20 000 plus, I would not want to use it to go to school. Actually, at this point I would, but I would be internally kicking myself. What would I use the money for? I don't know. School is probably a better idea than drugs. (A joke. That was a joke. I don't do drugs. Ahem.) But I don't have the money, I don't have any immediate job prospects, and getting funding for a UK degree is almost out of the question. Well, damn. Every time I do any research about this I get discouraged and talk myself out of it, but it remains the best option.

The other option is do a long working-holiday / youth mobility whatever whatever. This would get me into England legally for a year or two, but I would more than likely be waitressing or working at Sainsbury's if I managed to find work at all. Given my extreme lack of success in that so far, I don't want to pit my future against my shitty inability to find a job. And, after all that is finished, what do I have? The satisfaction of having worked at a shit job for a while, but no further qualifications or prospects. I'm pretty sure I want to get some further training, and I'm also pretty sure I don't want to put it off for two or three years.

What I know for certain is I'm going to England next week, staying for two weeks, and I'm looking for a job again when I get back. I'm planning to work for the next year or so - but that seems like an awfully long time, and I don't look forward to more 6 months periods of absence. I keep thinking my life would have been so much easier if I'd been able to graduate this June - I could have done a working holiday starting this summer and then gone from there. Alas, I have courses to complete. I can take off for two weeks, but being gone for the whole time and beyond would not be advisable. Regrets don't help, and there's not much I could have done in my circumstances. (There's really a lot I could have done if I'd had my act together from day 1, but as the previous paragraphs show, I've pretty much never had my act together when it comes to planning for the future. So never mind that.)

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

A lesson in superwash

In December/January I knit some socks for my mom - my first pair of socks, Monkeys out of some vintage fingering-weight wool I got for cheap at Lewiscraft when they were closing out. Not superwash. I knew this was a bad idea for socks, but as time wore on and the socks held up with gentle washings I thought it wasn't such a big deal after all.

So I made myself some ankle socks out of the same yarn in a different colour. Aaaaand the heels felted after I wore them twice. I guess I'm rougher on my socks than my mom is.

I have more of this same kind of yarn, but all sock plans are on hold until I acquire some suitable sock yarn. Hahaha. More to the point, I need to figure out what to make with a few scattered skeins of non-superwash fingering weight yarn, since I'm currently anti-stash.

Candidates include "Spin me right round baby" slouchy hat,though I'm still not sure if I can wear slouchy berets.

In the meantime, more iris:

Iris, June 6

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Found

The other day I finally put some of my found jewelry to use.

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I found the chain on the ground at a pub in Plymouth, and the beaten up fake pearl, silvery-plastic bead,the button, and a few others in various forms on the ground in Exeter. I still have a few lone earrings, including several huge hoops that I found in Exeter, but they didn't fit this project. The stone chips are also recycled from an old barrette that I made years ago but have no use for now.

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I like colour. That should be obvious. What I enjoyed most about this project, other than the 'found' aspect, was sorting through my miscellaneous beads collecting blues and whites that fit. I am drawn to chromatic colours with slight variation that all merge into and play off each other. Sometimes I feel limited by my need to pair blues with blues. I wonder if I'm over-matching. That said, I didn't feel limited here, and I'm pleased with this necklace, though chains aren't generally my thing. I like the possibilities of chains - I may have to invest in some more. It doesn't always hang quite right, which is something to work on for next time, but all in all I'm pleased!

Thursday, June 05, 2008

cookie time!

Almond cookies

Almond cookies. I consider these my most successful attempt in a while - I modified the recipe heavily enough that I consider it my own, but sometimes that has disasterous results.

This time? Delicious, almond-y, crunchy, crumbly cookies. I expect I could have made them softer or chewier if I'd used butter or margarine, but I almost never use solid fat in baking anymore. Next time I'll use a little less sugar and slightly more spice.

Almond cookies

Almond cookies
2 cups white flour
3/4 cup whole wheat flour
1 cup granulated sugar
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon ground ginger (or more)
1/2 teaspoon cinnamon (or more)
pinch salt
1 cup vegetable oil
1 egg
1 teaspoon almond extract
whole almonds

Mix dry ingredients, including sugar. Add oil: mixture will be moist but crumbly. Lightly beat egg with almond extract and add to the main mixture.

Roll into balls ~1 inch or slightly larger and place on baking sheet 2 inches apart. Place an almond on top of each cookie and press in slightly.

Bake for 15-20 minutes at 325 F.

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

the weekly pre-essay ramble

I have another essay due this evening, so it's time for some daydreaming and speculation. The gray weather lately hasn't helped, although perhaps logic says gray days are best for essays - gray days are also good for knitting and thinking about knitting.

Felted bags have been appealing to me lately. The Stitch and Bitch Nation "Letter Have It" bag has been at the back of my mind for a while since it is one of the few knitting books I own. Since my first initial in lowercase is rather dull I was thinking of doing a question mark. Pretending to be enigmatic, you know.

The other bag I love at the moment is Jennifer Tallapaneni's Celtic tote. I'm a sucker for Celtic knotwork, or any knotwork really. Love.

Problems with me knitting either or both of these bags: I've never enjoyed transfering all my crap from one stylish bag to the next. I have a medium sized black MEC purse that I use all the time when I'm not using my old backpack that I've had since grade 4. You heard me. This backpack has seen me through elementary school, high school, and now university. It is a great size - not so big that I filled it to back-breaking weights back when I took courses that required textbooks and had to climb several flights of stairs to get to my locker. I joked that I'd get a new pack for grad school, but who knows - it has been around for so long that it seems silly to abandon it now when it hasn't entirely disintegrated yet.

True, it is getting a little shabby, but other than some minor repairs over the years it has held up pretty well. The leather on the bottom has torn in a few places, and I keep saying I'll fix it (I will! This bag has more years in it!), but I haven't yet.

Anyway, totes aren't really my thing - I prefer to have the weight distributed on both shoulders, or I prefer long purse straps that cross over my chest for stability. Practicality aside, those bags look great, though.

Monday, June 02, 2008

Scenes from a garden

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Chives

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Bachelor button

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Yellow iris, looking particularly sensual today ;)

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Peonies

Thursday, May 29, 2008

FO and FO?

I finished something in the last few days, finally. It wasn't knitting, but I've been working at it for about least a month. Maybe longer - I wasn't keeping track.

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I bought this copy at a second-hand book sale a few years ago. It's an edition from the 40s with a nifty map comparing Napoleon's invasion of Russia to Hitler's invasion. I guess there was something on everyone's mind in the 40s. Understandably.

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This seems to be on everyone's list of "Books I should read but will never get around to." Really, when I picked it up at the sale on a whim I didn't have a strong conviction I'd ever read it either. But then, why read it "eventually" when I could read it now? Or something. If only I was that motivated about some other things in my life. Right.

But it's not so scary: it's almost entirely comprehensible, unlike much of the reading I did this year. (Okay, I'll stop bitching about 4th year. Maybe.) As my boyfriend says, it's like Jane Austen but with battles. I'm not sure the comparison is perfect, but it's certainly apt in some respects. In any case, despite it's potentially intimidating length I liked it a lot. It's a very satisfying book, and now I know what the fuss is all about. I read Anna Karenina a few years ago, but I think I enjoyed War and Peace more.

OH AND. A knitting FO, too!
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Excuse the horrible backlighting and the awkward position. Here are Alison's Ankle Socks. I've mused about the shortrow heel difficulty before. They do look pretty rough, but not bad for my second pair of socks ever. If I make them again I'll add more rows of stockinette between the ribbing and the heel; I used 6, but I suspect they will slip down in my shoes. I have more than half a skein of this yarn left, which is unexpected. I constantly misjudge these things - I figured I wouldn't have enough for a regular length pair of socks, but now I have enough left to add some fun stripes to something some day. Hmmm perhaps I'll learn jogless stripes one of these days.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

back to old bad habits

I'm feeling the need to blog about nothing in particular since I'm once again writing essays. My summer course has vaguely kicked off and I hand in my first weekly paper tonight. "Evening" is such a non-specific deadline; I told myself it'd be done by 5, but perhaps I'll move that to 6. Ehhh. I find the material very interesting and it's totally different from all the stuff I spent this year doing that I hated, so yay! Somehow I feel like I want another few weeks off before school again. Alas.

The way I write essays or anything with a deadline is constant. I mean, I write and write until I have to hand it in or go to bed; usually the latter. Maybe it's good to constantly revise and redo, but sometimes I'm frustrated that nothing really ever gets finished. I mean, I finish it because I have to hand it in, but there's no definitive point when I know it is finished before then. Ah well.

I finished little pink sock #1, and it fits okay. Chugging away on the next one - will post pictures when they are both done.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

countdowns

crabapples

The crabapple trees have mostly lost their flowers and no longer look like this. It's a cliche, (isn't everything I do a cliche?), but I like to walk under them in their low branches and be surrounded by tree.

In less than a month I'll be going back to England for a visit, and I've all but abandoned any hope I had of getting a job before then. I'll start another massive and concentrated job search when I return, or something. I've been so excited about this trip ever since I booked my plane tickets, but now that it is close I've felt a strange mixture of relief and anxiety. Relief because a month is significantly less than 6 months, which is how long I will have been away from a significant fellow, almost to the day. Anxiety because of the time I've wasted between then and now moping over being so far away. I have this thing about counting down to an event: it makes me feel like the time before the event is useless and worth wasting, when I know it would be better used in activities other than counting down. I'd like to be able to accept the time and not agonize over it. I want to use it wisely because I know I won't get it back. Counting down seems like a way of counting down to my own death, and that sort of thing freaks me out.

Anyway. The point is, I feel I could have done more other than stress out these last 6 months. To be fair, I churned out an impressive bulk of final year essays and other tree-destroying work, and I did the most ambitious knitting I've ever engaged in - my first sweater, first socks, first cables, first stranded colourwork, some ill-received but nonetheless awesome monster-shaped furry slippers... So yay for me and my personal accomplishments, I guess. Plus, moping aside, I managed to hold up my end of a long distance relationship over a separation of 6 months- which wasn't really that hard most of the time and could have been much worse. While these haven't been the most fun 6 months of my life, maybe I should be satisfied.

That was a lot angstier than I had intended in this post-livejournal age. Oh well, whatever.

Friday, May 23, 2008

socks and sundry

I finished the back piece of the vest the other day, but I'm finding it dull, so I'm taking a break - famous last words. I've started some quick socks, and when they are finished I'll continue working on the vest.

These are Alison's Ankle Socks, in the leftover light pink from my endpaper mitts. It's hard to tell from the pictures, but I'm about halfway done the first sock. They are a little shorter on the ankle than I intended, and I think my feet are slightly too wide for the gauge, but they'll do.

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I'm a novice sock knitter; this is my second pair of socks ever, and first with a short row heel/toe. Perhaps I can be forgiven for totally fudging the heel - the first time I knit it I attempted to use wrap and turn since that's the way I (sort of) know how to do short rows. The pattern is written with another method that confused me so I tried to ignore it, but that was a bad idea. When I finished, it looked a lot more like a toe than a heel and I panicked. I ended up ripping it out and starting over. That was probably needless, but as I say I was ignorant of short row heels before this experience. Upon reading to the end of the pattern, I realized that the toe is made in exactly the same way as the heel. So the fact that the heel looked like a toe? Shouldn't have been an issue. Right, oh well. Thwarted again!

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It still looks like a toe when folded like this, but as seen in the first photo it's totally a heel. A little rough, but I'll work on my technique for the second sock.

In less fun news, there was a bombing in Exeter. While it sounds like a mostly botched affair, and only the bomber was injured, it's a bit scary. Watching cell phone camera footage of people milling about on High Street after the explosion is unsettling. Exeter seems like a very unlikely place for terrorism, I must say. The university has a reputable centre for Arab and Islamic Studies; I took a module there last year. I'm sure the intellectuals can handle it, but I hope there's no bigotry and backlash. I'm going back there in June to visit the boy and I'm so so so excited that bombs won't dampen my enthusiasm. So there.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Queuing

Ravelry's queue feature has been both useful and obstructive in my mental knitting life. I have to stop myself from putting everything I sort of like in my queue, because I know I don't intend to make most of it. The top of my queue has things I definitely want to make, but the trouble lies in my desire to make useful things. My mental knitting life needs a different sort of organization, so I'm going to use this space to make a different kind of queue based on the kind of item I need/want.

Things I need/want to make for myself in the next 6 months:
1. A summer cardigan: Lucky clover lace wrap; Ysolda's forthcoming cloud cardigan thing;
2. A shrug: Bellflower; Shimmer; Drop-stitch shrug
3. A fall/winter cardigan: Basic Black; Brennan cardigan; Sesame;
4. Socks: Hedera; Alison's ankle socks;
5. A real scarf for me: Henry; Tiger Eye lace; Ropes and Ladders

I have lots of options. Realistically, I'll do socks first, since I have yarn for them. I'm probably going to end up making a shrug instead of a summer cardigan this year, since it will be quicker and probably cheaper... I need something for summer arm-coverage since I burn so easily. And a scarf is just necessary. Would you believe I haven't knit a scarf for several years, and so I still use my three-year experimental seat-of-the-pants roll-y stockinette striped scarf from a few years back? Indeed. It's warm, but I think I need an update that shows off my somewhat improved knitting skills. Snrk.

The year of accessories is upon us?

Monday, May 12, 2008

I like flowers, yay - gratuitous photos



The backyard is carpeted in violets and dandelions at the moment, and the forget-me-nots are starting to emerge in the front. The tulips are on the wane, but I had forgotten how many different kinds we have. When I was a kid we had tiny red ones and tiny yellow/white ones, and those are the ones I always remember, but the others always surprise me.





On the crafty front, I'm slogging away at the vest - it's going more quickly than I had expected for smallish gauge stockinette stitch. I'd been embroidering some jeans, since I am always more attracted to that in the warm weather, but my embroidery hoop broke, plus my octopus looks more like cookie monster. (as in, blue and hairy with yellow eyes.) Oops. I'll remedy that eventually.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

100 things about me

1. I hate the smell of vinegar. It makes me gag and choke, usually over-dramatically.
2. I wish I could sew all my own clothing, but whenever I try I end up having to do everything twice.
3. I have knit far more disasters than successes.
4. My first real FO was a pair of felted mittens in Lopi yarn that took me three years to knit because I forgot about them for long periods of time.
5. I try to be a monogamous knitter.
6. I love garlic.
7. I can’t stand tomatoes or anything made with tomatoes. Tomato sauce is one of my least favourite smells.
8. I have a sensitive sense of smell. My dad used to joke that I was a supertaster as well, but I don’t think I technically am, given that I enjoy most of the things that supertasters are apparently less likely to: spinach, coffee, olives, grapefruit juice, soy, etc.
9. I don’t really like cheese, but I’ve become more open to it in my old age.
10. I let my G1 license expire, and I’m not planning on getting a driving license in the near future.
11. I want to live somewhere I can walk to everywhere I need to go.
12. I obsessively modify recipes.
13. I’m awkward.
14. My favourite dessert is plain yogourt with fresh peaches.
15. In my third year of university I studied abroad in England.
16. I play the saxophone, but I haven’t seriously since 1st year university.
17. I have dual citizenship: Canadian / American.
18. I have run out of shelf space for my books and they have begun to occupy my floor.
19. My pretentiously conceived dream home is filled with plants, books, and art.
20. I am obsessed with the idea of living sustainably, but I haven’t figured out a way to do that yet.
21. When I was in England, I was mistaken for Irish on two separate occasions, once by an Irishman. This continues to puzzle me.
22. I wish I was good at languages, but on the other hand I’m shy and anti-social enough that I would never use them.
23. I’m a Latin nerd.
24. I spent hours in the Paris catacombs trying to figure out Latin inscriptions among the bones.
25. When I visited Prague, I spent a whole day in two Kafka museums, although I had not read any of his work at that point.
26. I have had a journal on and off since I was 7. My first journal had a plastic cover with balloons on it.
27. I am afraid of forgetting things. This fuels my obsessive journal writing.
28. I went to band camp for several years in high school and constantly had to deal with people quoting a crappy teen comedy.
29. I tend to remain ignorant about the gadgetry associated with my interests and hobbies.
30. I’m generally okay with being mediocre.
31. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy changed my life and remains a significant influence on me even ten years after I read it.
32. My relationship with my brother is almost entirely based on inside jokes from weird radio comedy.
33. Octopi fascinate me.
34. On my 19th birthday my friends forced me to sign up for facebook against my will.
35. I left livejournal for political reasons.
36. People often make puns with my last name.
37. I rarely buy souvenirs other than postcards when I travel.
38. I am in love with the idea of sweater vests.
39. Someday I expect to own a tweed jacket with leather patches.
40. I don’t understand a word of Heidegger.
41. My extended family on my father’s side all live within a 5-block radius of my immediate family. We were there first.
42. I was born in Germany. No, I do not have German citizenship, nor do I speak German, although I wish I could.
43. I love Minoan art motifs.
44. My experience as high school yearbook editor taught me a lot, but it also turned me off management forever.
45. I get really excited about seeing things that I learned about in textbooks in person.
46. My style of traveling is to wander aimlessly and stumble upon interesting things. This is not foolproof.
47. I have traveled in Canada, U.S.A, Costa Rica, China, England, Scotland, Ireland, France, Germany, and the Czech Republic, with brief but significant stops in Belgium and Wales.
48. I have a knack for liking clothing in styles entirely unsuited to my body type.
49. But I actually like my body type, most of the time.
50. I have blue eyes, brown hair, and freckles.
51. I am growing my hair until I can’t stand it anymore.
52. One of the reasons I am growing my hair is to avoid making a decision about how to have it cut.
53. I’m chronically indecisive.
54. When I was a baby, my parents and I vacationed in Portugal, and Chernobyl blew up while we were there. My parents have a photo in which can be seen a newspaper with a headline describing the nuclear disaster.
55. I am afraid of the telephone.
56. I read Doorways in the Sand by Roger Zelazny about once a year.
57. I would like to visit New Zealand.
58. I am unable to specialize, and I fear this makes me master of none.
59. I feel guilty if I don’t pay attention to world events for any length of time.
60. I don’t believe in free will.
61. I made earrings long before I got my ears pierced.
62. I like winter.
63. Skating is my favourite athletic activity, and the only one I’m any good at.
64. Though, hiking is also up there.
65.I love cliffs and oceans.
66. People tend to forget who I am, so I have a habit of reminding them even when I don’t need to.
67. I realize that compiling this list is an exercise in ego, but then, so is having a blog. So I’ll keep going.
68. My main vice is chocolate covered almonds.
69. Despite what they may tell you, I’m not a Communist. Really.
70. I do not want to contribute to the clutter of the universe, but I love making things that tend to contribute to this clutter.
71. For the above reason I have developed a pathological obsession with practicality in my handmade items. This only works in theory.
72. I love fruit. Apples are my favourite fall fruit, peaches are my favourite in summer, and grapefruits in winter.
73. I am afraid of showing anyone my work before knowing I’m absolutely perfect at it; of course, I never feel I’ve completely mastered anything, so I rarely put my work out in public.
74. Yet, I don’t consider myself a perfectionist. When I make things for myself I fudge them all the way along.
75. If I lived in ancient Rome (and was a free-born male), I would probably have been an Epicurean.
76. Green and purple is my favourite colour combination.
77. I often make sarcastic remarks at the television in a loud and belligerent voice.
78. Sleeping on clean sheets is one of my simple pleasures.
79. Diamonds are overrated.
80. I’m still not sure what I want to be when I grow up, if I grow up.
81. Objects silhouetted against the sky please my aesthetic sense.
82. I love words like sesquipedalian. And just words in general.
83. I do not want to have pets, ever. Other than maybe fish.
84. I could easily become pescatarian, except that the fishing industry is the one I object to most of food industries, so any ethical decisions attempted in the process would be undermined.
85. I quit eating beef for a year while I was in England, but I swear it was not from fear of mad cow disease.
86. I don’t eat pork. This has nothing to do with the fact that half my family is Jewish.
87. Fashion fascinates and repels me.
88. I’m not ambitious. This does not make me a slacker, though.
89. I love old books in all their yellowing, dusty, cracked glory.
90. I seem to like a lot of music by men with low, gravely, often tuneless voices (e.g. Tom Waits, Leonard Cohen, Louis Armstrong).
91. I once saw Sonny Rollins in concert, and it remains tied for the best show of my life.
92. The other best show was The Decemberists in Glasgow in 2007.
93. Making hand-bound blank books fills me with satisfaction.
94. I have been known to sunburn even in the spring when it is overcast.
95. I only tan after I burn, but even my tan looks a lot like most other people’s pasty winter skin.
96. Greek mythology was my first academic passion, from grade 6 onward.
97. Most of my favourite books are dystopian fiction.
98. One of the few stuffed animals I still have is a giant plaid moose.
99. My favourite flowers are violets and forget-me-nots.
100. I have a bad sense of direction. Sometimes I pretend I don’t know where something is so that I don’t have to try to explain it and inevitably make someone else get lost.

Friday, May 09, 2008

Knit scavenging

Okay, so false alarm about the alpaca blend basement yarn. I kept knitting, and it no longer bothers me, so I'm going to stick with this Gilmore vest.

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I am slowing making my way... I haven't knit anything flat in a long time.

Note the mismatched needles:
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These needles were scavenged from second hand stores over the years, or dumped, partnerless, in my basement by a relative. Or something. In any case, they are the same size, so they work fine. They amuse me.

Mismatchedness, scavenging, reusing... I think these are features of my crafting style, if I have such a thing. I like working with found objects: I pick broken jewelry up off the ground with every intention to make something new out of it (I will someday, I swear). I use found basement needles and found basement yarn. Part of my love-hate relationship with the clutter of handicraft seems to mellow with found crafts, since at least I can use something that someone else might have thrown away. I'm not sure if it gets me anywhere; maybe the effect is purely psychological.

Monday, May 05, 2008

Ugh!

Knitting with the alpaca-blend basement yarn did not bother me when I was doing a gauge swatch this week. It didn't bother me when I was swatching back in October... but suddenly it makes my hands all tingly and itchy. I'm not impressed. I doubt that I'm allergic to alpaca, since I have items of clothing that contain alpaca that have never bothered me, so this is extremely puzzling. Perhaps it is time to start some socks instead.

Saturday, May 03, 2008

basement yarn

I barely have a stash, and for now I'd like to keep it that way. I'm a student living with my parents probably moving away to an exotic foreign land for grad school in the next few years (or so I keep telling myself), and I don't want to drag a large stash with me; nor do I want to leave it behind. I'm trying to buy with specific projects in mind, and I'm trying to avoid yarn sales. Sigh. My stash at the moment has remnants and leftovers, and several skeins of ancient fingering-weight wool from Switzerland that will probably become socks, (not superwash, so very impractical but oh well) or maybe a beret.

My basement has a sizeable stash, however. It is comprised of yarn that my mom has collected over the years, as well as donations from grandparents who no longer want to knit. Lots of weird yarn, and mostly anonymous yarn - it's great fun searching through it. I've always liked household archaeology. Some of it dates back to my infancy, when my parents lived in Germany. Like the eight balls of anonymous charcoal 50% alpaca, 30% new wool, 20% polyacryl marked at 5 Deutsche Marks per ball. It's so fuzzy.

I found this yarn basement stash-diving last summer and originally intended it for my first sweater, but it was the wrong weight (DKish) and I didn't think I'd have enough. But given my obsession with sweatervests, I was bound to come to this conclusion eventually. Summer isn't exactly the best time for making a sweater vest, I guess, but maybe it will encourage me to get out there and find a job in an air-conditioned office. Maybe. I'm sure I'll have too much yarn for this vest, but I'm still not convinced there's enough here for the kind of sweater I'd want to make. My leftovers will go back into the basement yarn abyss to await discovery by hapless explorers in years to come. No big deal.

I think I'll add a touch of waist shaping, if I can figure out how to do that without too much trouble. I have been looking at the Stitch and Bitch Nation sweater customization suggestions and thinking it would really be useful to have some basic mental math skills again. I'll work on it. I'm not sure if such a deep v neck is a good idea either, but I guess I'll find out.

Monday, April 28, 2008

spinning envy

This, more than anything else makes me want to take up spinning. How gorgeous. Some day I'll try spinning, and I'll knit awkward scarves out of my efforts. Sigh.

My aunt spins or has spun - she lives in the country with more dogs and cats than anyone dare count, and she has angora rabbits as well. She made my mom a really soft scarf made of samoyed-hair yarn years ago. So cool. Not only spinning, but spinning one's own gathered fibre.

I'm wearing my Endpaper mitts indoors at the end of April. It's a rainy day, but I like rain. I went out shopping earlier and didn't bring the mitts along, but as I was wearing a 3/4 sleeve shirt, I think they would have been useful. This will be the last opportunity before October, I expect, so I might as well wear them as much as possible now.

Zellers is my stop for cheap acrylic when life calls for cheap acrylic, and I picked some up for a mystery gift project today (don't know why I'm being so secretive as the recipient surely does not read this blog but anyway. Paranoia is a way of life). I restrained myself from picking up a load of cheap Bernat cotton. I want to make a shrug, most likely with cotton, but I had the sinking suspicion that buying it from Zellers was a recipe for disaster. Given that Ravelry says most use it for dishclothes I'm thinking I was right, but I'm still wavering on the Cottontots. Whatever. I don't want to be building stash, and I don't want to spend more money than I have to, but at some point I'll invest in some real yarn for a project.

girly mitts

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My first colourwork project is finished, and I'm very pleased. They aren't perfect, and they are extraordinarily pink, and they are finished just in time for summer, but hey. Stranding. Woo!

We had some excellent rain last night. I love loud rainstorms.

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These tulips weren't out yesterday, but they must have been caught in the rain because today they started out looking a bit blasted, and by evening they looked sleepy.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

I take the same pictures every year

Photography. A habit that has persisted beyond and survived my adolescence. It's true, in my adolescence I dabbled in poetry, and we can all guess how that turned out. Slightly more successfully, I hope, I have continued to dabble in photography, taking cliche macro shots of flowers going on several years now! On my harddrive I have years worth of these photos, but every spring I go out and take them again, hopefully improving the angle or the focus or the composition... I don't look at those old photos often, so I can't really tell if I've improved, but it doesn't dampen my enthusiasm for exploring the outdoors and documenting the progress of the garden with a camera. Wow, I'm pretentious. Anyway. Spring is here and perhaps has already passed into summer, judging from the 20 C and above temperatures, so here is some evidence.

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008

The end is near.

I had my last undergraduate exam today, and likely my last university exam ever. I still have to do summer research before I can graduate, so no jumping up and down for me, but it seems like this is some sort of milestone.

This situation lends itself to reminiscences about the last four years, and on that note I've compiled a list of my favourite and least favourite books from each year. That I can remember, anyway. The earlier years are a bit hazy at this point.

First year:
Favourite:
Tao Te Ching
Analects of Confucius
Bhagavad Gita
Catch-22, Joseph Heller
Judges
Ezekiel
Least: Maria Chapdelaine, Louis Hemon

Second year:
Favourite:
Consolation of Philosophy, Boethius
Confessions, Augustine
Republic, Plato
The Handmaid’s Tale, Margaret Atwood
The Golden Ass, Apuleius
The Divine Comedy, Dante
Least: Aquinas.

Third year (abroad):
Favourite:
The Duchess of Malfi, John Webster
The Jew of Malta, Christopher Marlowe
De Rerum Natura, Lucretius
Least: Cicero

Fourth Year:
Favourite:
The Decameron, Boccaccio
Beyond Good and Evil, Nietzsche
Into That Darkness, Gitta Sereny
Gargantua and Pantagruel, Rabelais
The Great Transformation, Karl Polanyi
The Human Condition, Hannah Arendt
Pale Fire, Vladimir Nabokov
Least:
Phenomenology of Spirit, Hegel
Heidegger
Book of the Courtier, Castiglione
Rousseau

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Spring



Crocuses in the garden mean spring is actually here. This is exciting, even though it means that my Endpaper mitts probably won't get any wear before the fall. This may be the eternal knitting dilemma, but for now I don't mind that the weather is getting warmer, and the sludgy gray earth is melting.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Girliest Endpaper Mitts ever

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I swear the yarn looked more purple in the store. Blasted natural light! Oh well.

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Magknits?

Blah blah blah drama blah blah blah. I don't really know what happened or why, and I won't add my own theories to the mix. Needless to say, I was disappointed to discover that I have loads of Magknits patterns queued that I had not saved to my computer yet. Some of them I have been able to find cached on the internet, which is cool. As for the others, oh well. I suppose I have enough to do as it is these days.

I'd like to feel all jubilant and/or nostalgic at having handed in my last undergraduate paper of the term, but it's hard to conjure up those feelings knowing I have to do directed research over the summer, which will surely require numerous papers. University is slowly ending. What will I do with my life?

Saturday, April 05, 2008

blah!

The internet is not being too good to me right now, so it's time for an angry rant. I'm excessively annoyed at the prospect of phoning First Great Western long distance in order to get them to sort out my stupid credit card situation, since I know they'll put me on hold for ages and it will cost a fortune, and they'll probably deny I exist or that I ever tried to purchase a ticket from them.

The facts are these:
Last night I tried to buy a train ticket off their website for my coming visit to England. I filled out all the details and pressed submit, and my authorization was declined. Annoyed and freaking out a little I called my credit card company who said there was nothing wrong with my card, and no charges had appeared, so I should try again. I tried again. The authorization was again declined and I called them back in a growing panic. This time, they said that the authorization had certainly gone through on their end, so this was clearly the merchant's problem. And, as it turns out, my problem since the authorization went through four times, meaning there's a possibility I'd be charged four times for this one train ticket that I still didn't succeed in buying. The nice folks at the credit card company said they'd cancel all but one of those authorizations so I don't get overcharged, but they told me to phone the merchant and sort it out with them. Last night when I tried to called them they were closed, so I sent them some emails that I was supposed to get replies for within 12 hours. Nothing. Now I think I really do need to call them but how much do I not want to do that right now. Ugh. For one thing, I'm going mad writing my last paper for which I had 3 out of 20 pages done so far. If both this paper and my train ticket madness could just go away right now I'd be very happy.

Okay, that's my rant.

Friday, April 04, 2008

Gretel

I'm in the interesting position, after keeping a livejournal for a few years that only friends read, of now having a public blog in the open that nobody reads. This is sure to change the content of my blogging, and probably for the better; that teen angst thing got old even before it started, but it stuck around for a few years nonetheless. Anyway, life is great!

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I finished knitting Gretel a few days ago. I ended up making the slouchy version, since I wanted a hat that fit over my hair. So it's big. And huge. And beautiful. It certainly fits over my hair, but I don't know if I can pull off big berets with my head/face shape. I've been wearing it anyway, since unflattering clothing rarely stops me, and I love the beret regardless. Ysolda is a genius, clearly, blah blah gush gush. This was my second ever cable project, and my first using two circulars, and maybe some day I'll make myself a regular-sized one for dome-shaped-head fall fun. (details on ravelry)

Endpaper mitts are up next, despite the fact that they are not very suitable for the climate in which I reside. I'm in love with the idea of them, though, so they'll be my one impractical pattern of the spring. I can allow myself one, right? Anyway, these will be my first attempt at stranding - the swatch went okay, so I'm pretty excited.